When you combine my uncontrolled Bipolar, no medication and, yes I am going to fucking say it, and about time I did, Sociopathy, you have a sure fire way of destroying me and many others. I am sick and tired of patronising people offering empathy on subjects they clearly have no idea about. I would rather they kept their mouths shut and play in fields of flowers, away from the truth they seek to hide.
I have had lie after lie, reassurance after reassurance and platitude after platitude. Hollow, meaningless trite, spouted out of their scripted mouths, used to try and limit damage for the shameful and twisted logic they seek to protect.
I may well be a mad, unmedicated and scared sufferer of yet a new Bipolar diagnosis, but I am also lucid, intelligent and realistic, just fed up with lies and excuses. I have had enough of the charade playing out around me, in order to make me believe in my abilities, charitable nature and made up fantasies. These things are absolutely nonsense to me, after the way I have been used, to do something, no one else has or will ever do. Why? because there is no support, a wall of silence and a firm belief that nothing will be done.
My health has deteriorated, collapsed and become uncontrollable. Mania, Ultra Rapid Cycling, delusions, harmful and suicidal thoughts. Bought down to such a level, that one would think, at least a common duty of care, a few truths and some safeguards would be in place, to protect me, especially at this critical time. Well no, there is none of the above and a person covered by The Disability Discrimination Act, is left to the mercy of those who seek to destroy.
In all my years, I have never known this level of sheer neglect. I really wish I could say and expose more, but I can't. So much rage, shock, loss of faith and bloody anger. I am not playing these games any more. You did not do what you promised and I have had enough. Time to do the right thing for me, before I become yet another victim and statistic.
You never followed your own aims and ethics and that is painful to deal with. My conscience is clean, yours is full of failures and illegalities and I am regaining my integrity.
This will last a life time for me, thanks to the severe nature of my relapse. I hope you can live with that!