Tonight, What can i say about tonight. Tonight we had our Terry around, It was nice to see him, many prospects in life and his future, He has spent a vast majority of his evening learning to drive, Via computer no less, a few beers is apparently the key to successfully passing your driving theory. Terry is a great friend honest integral and sensitive. These are my words, thoughts, (Jay Greaves)
For me it has been quite an emotional few days. Both good and bad, so to see Terry at this time, really lifted my spirits. Everyone needs someone like Tel, many should follow his example of friendship. Not a taker, always giving, with a good heart and intentions. If you haven't seen me for a while, like Tel, you may well be shocked at my current condition. I look terribly ill, warn down, thinner, pained and nearing the end of much at the moment. The inertia and inaction are making me so ill, that people are beginning to worry. To be honest I even use a walking stick for support, or I would literally collapse. Terry did my housework and hoovering. Thank you darling, it really helped.
Jay Greaves Came in after work. He is moving in on the 1st August anyway. He wants to be close right now and make sure we are not suffering in the extreme. He will be helping me at this awful time, to try and recover somewhat, difficult without medication, as well as arrange the sale of our goods and chattles. After my past refusal, Jay has started to call me POPs again. He will always be my son and it is recognition of the important role he plays in our life now and in the past. He knows I love him dearly and has helped us so much at this time.
I was quite emotional tonight. Things are beginning to get to me. Myself and Jason removed from situations beyond our control for our own safety. We have done nothing wrong, which is widely understood, but we have a process to follow, to gain closure and then finally off to a new life in Spain. A daunting prospect, but a new start for all the damage caused. I rarely cry, but did in front of Jay. He copes with it better. There is so much concern that I do not become so ill, that permanent damage is not caused. Those responsible are well aware of what they have done and will have to answer for their own actions.
I do not know Jay from old, so do not judge and just like him say it how it is. Other people can be scared or intimidated by him, no idea why. It is probably to do with their own personality and integrity. I could think of no one better to share the last half of mine and Jason's life together. He will always have all he wants and needs and I will have the Son I always desired.
A strange but very important family unit. At times, he has been the only person to cope with my illness, through his own experience and the support, without reservation, that he has given, under the most distressing of circumstances.