Surgery, 2 September 2015
It was Jason's turn to go to The Surgery this week. His medication wasn't working too well, so I went with him and he had them changed..
They hadn't been working for a while, so with the situation as it is, it was time to get them changed. The Doctor agreed and hopefully, Jason will get back to his old self!
Pounds, Shillings & Pence!
I am quite old fashioned where shopping is concerned. I always buy branded products and like the traditional type things, my Mother and Gran used to buy. I suppose it was the way I was bought up.
When myself and Jason got together and towards the end of the 1990s, all the supermarkets were having a price war. I remember you could quite easily go in to Safeway's in Portswood and buy a loaf of bread for 10p, a tin of beans for 1p and even a bottle of wine for 99p. If you wanted to live cheap you could, very easily!
Times were very different back then. Everything was so much cheaper. Wages were small, but never the less you could live life well, poor or not. I think it was one of the reasons Jason fell in love with the UK.
Sadly as time moved on and everything has become more expensive. Life, as difficult as it is, has just become more difficult. Changing times, make for changing people!
My life isn't just one long round of drama. I do of course lead a normal life. much like you do. I know my blog, sometimes seems unusual and different from the norm, but the reality is very different.
Bipolar tends to make everything, a little different. This is mainly due to the way we handle people and situations. Which can be totally different from others. Bipolar itself is also a great way of seeing other sides to things, that under normal circumstances one wouldn't see!
After the Surgery, we had to go to ASDA. Now to be honest I would rather not go and Jason would rather I didn't. Basically I am learning not to spend a lot of money in the damn place and just buy essentials. It never works and I still have no concept of money!
There are four of us living at Gay Capri now, Myself, Jason, Jay and Chris, so shopping has become cheaper than it ever has been. Each of us, does one shop a week. which keeps the cost down to a minimum.
I do find it funny, how each of us, shops differently and could quite easily, rate each of us out of 10, for the quality of our shop!
Shopping done and the end of another normal day in my life. Normal days are becoming more frequent, as time moves forward, and as we hopefully reach the end of this debilitating period soon, our lives will finally become the most normal thing we have left. Well that and a trunk full of memories, all that we are permitted to take with us on our journey to the continent!
Peace and Love, always!
Dinner, 3 September 2015
With all three of us unwell, we decided to get out of Southampton for a bit. A number of issues are getting us all down and the inaction is beyond belief. When you have been waiting for an answer for six months, you can see just how badly our health is being effected. To leave anyone in this awful situation for even a few weeks is bad enough, but for months on end could be classed as negligent.
Cold Summers Day!
As per usual, this August, it was a freezing cold day. This summer has been miserable in all respects. The weather has been atrocious and the circumstances even worse. I think I can speak for everyone when I say we will all be glad to get the hell out of here,
Sitting outside having a cigarette in the Autumnal weather, is a very different experience, to that of a searing hot summer. A rare thing in this Country, roll on Spain!
It was great to sit and have a pint at the old Sailor. Don't get to do it that often, but when you do, you really do breath a sigh a relief. Familiar things help with a deteriorating mind!
....and finally to 'The Old Ship' at Lee-on-Solent for Dinner. Lee, was where I used to go with my Gran and Grandad, many years ago, when I was a kid. We used to walk the dogs down there and it has many fond childhood memories!
To be honest, I don't thing 'The Old Ship' has changed in 30 years itself!
Whenever I am feeling down, I head homewards. I say homewards, I really mean in that direction. Turning up on ones parents door step is an absolute No No.
We went to The Jolly Sailor, that restaurant, near home, that does excellent food, and allows you to sit on the marina, just looking at the boats from Hamble. I love going back to Burseldon and Hamble-Le-Rice at times when I am feeling low. I have some really happy memories as a student when I used to go down there, with friends long since gone!
The place is steeped in history and is full of photographs from the 1980s, when it featured in the soap opera, 'Howards Way' That was the time I went down there, even getting a 'bit part' drinking in the bar. Well, mainly because I was there and they were filming!
It is lovely walking along the top of the restaurant, towards the car park. There are some fantastic old buildings, like the gorgeous house on the left. You can see Hamble Marina and traditional village buildings. Burseldon Village is quintessentially British, beautifully preserved and looked after well, by the people that live there!
It is strange to me that familiar things do actually offer escape at difficult times. My childhood was never fantastic. I was never the most popular. I was always a little bit strange in comparison to most, but I was always a person who liked to feel comfortable in my surroundings!
In recent times, I have not been feeling comfortable at all and I have no idea why. It could possibly be the people but was more likely the surroundings. Southampton if you will had run its course. It was no longer doing it for me, like it used too. Part of a larger, underlying problem that I had to address!
Knowing that your fate was at the disposal of someone else was the catalyst for wanting change, but it was not the reason behind everything. It was the beginning of a process to completely change my life, all of it, every aspect, every single, solitary part of a life, that had for too long been charged and owned by others.
So, as time moves on and our Wedding takes place in 17 days, hopefully I can look forward to a better future!