During the past I used to be a lot more open minded than I am now. Somewhere along the way, I lost my will to believe, and the ability to empathise! I hope after her visit that will change. I still remain a sceptic on things I don't fully understand, until someone shows me otherwise..
I had a lot of questions I wanted answered. After all, it isn't everyday that a Medium contacts you, to inform you that they are with your dead Grandmother. My first question was the one we all want to know, the most obvious, but least understood concept.
'What happens when we die?'
'Everything, everyone, all things, are made of energy. Energy can't die. At the point of death, from this life, we are taken to another place. We spends three months preparing for what's ahead! Their world is very real. They can communicate with each other, as humans can. They can move from place to place and they are attracted to white energy or light.
This Blog, the words I write, the way they are written and the reasons behind the subjects I choose. All of these things are a part of positive, white energy or light. I have this strange need to write everything down, tell the truth and ignore the detractors! I know that and so do all of you, if you read my Blog, As each day passes, I have a stronger and stronger urge to write down the real facts. I have no idea why!
'Spirits are attracted to positive white energy!'
So what makes energy positive or negative. Well quite simply, the truth. If you are honest, you will be protected! The Medium asked me, how many times, in recent memory, should you have come to harm. After thinking about it I said 'HUNDREDS of times, literally HUNDREDS!'
'If you continue to tell the truth, and admit positive energy, you will be protected!'
Up until recently, there was a lot of blue or negative energy around us. The people here, were bad and had an agenda. Yes of course these people were dreadful, in every sense of the word. Nearly everyone who came to my house, were the worst I could have hoped for. These people omit blue energy, and sadly for the last couple of years, I had invited these people into my life, willingly!
The one thing I couldn't understand, was the reason my Nan knew how to contact a Lady who knew me.
After three months of being prepared for the Afterlife,by guides and guardians, it is now up to them to fully adjust and live their new life. I asked her for example, if my Nan would be with my Granddad. If they both wanted to, then yes, but is that what they want? My Granddad, may have decided No, he did not want to. If I know my Granddad at all, I'm sure he is glad of the break! The people they are around are those they all choose to be around. The important point for me, is my Nan, chose to seek me out. When I relapsed, became ill and everything that happened thereafter, she wanted to contact me! She probably knew who to contact, through a photo, that existed of myself and the Medium together in the past. There is such a photograph, but only one. It takes a lot of energy to find someone, so for them it must have been important.
'You have the gift!'
Somewhere along the way, I lost the ability. I am an 'Empathiser.' I used to believe far more in the past than I do now! A lot has happened in the last few years to stop me believing! She made me think about the past. The times when I was open and able to see, hear and feel things, that today I find very difficult.
You have to understand, especially with Bipolar, that you are always perceived vulnerable and this makes it difficult to open ones mind fully, without the possibility of ridicule or non belief. I suppose in many respects, I have let Bipolar overtake my real instincts, feelings and abilities.
I have been given the knowledge to move forward. I have been shown techniques to open my mind and I will try and use them to my best ability, but not yet! I have to get completely well enough first! When I am well, I can then give my fullest attention to something I still do not fully understand!
The future for me, looks good. I will be well enough, soon enough, to continue my life. My life is going to be very different! I do not want to see, hear or be around those who were in my life before. I now know who they really are and what they truly wanted from me and others. Part of my current recovery process, is to get accuracy out there. I WILL DO THAT. I don't care what happens, I intend to make correctness, facts, integrity and reality important. I will make intentions clear, with enough information to hang a lot of people. I am the one who needs to start putting right, the wrong doings of the past!
These people do not understand the truth, at all. Whatever one says to them, they would deny it. They believe, or rather their self belief is a delusion of their own making! The one thing they forget, is the wealth of information, the weight of evidence and the growing number of people who can finally see them for who they are! I will begin to write down more and more of what happened to us and indeed others. I will make sure they can finally disappear back to where they came from!
'Keep telling the truth. The truth will protect you, always!'