Yesterday, I began with a sense of anxiousness and did not know what to expect. As far as I am aware, things went OK. Of course that remains to be seen. In reality, I don't care, because I know I told the truth and finally had a voice. I suppose now, the outcome is no longer an issue, because the support I have had, is the most amazing and important factor. Without a good network of friends, it is clear things would have been a hundred times worse.
Jason and I have had many rough times in our life, but we both know we are honest and always aim to help both friends and those who we believe in. We have many faults, but essentially we always do the right thing, for each other and those we love. To be honest, so many people have expressed their support at this time, we are truly overwhelmed. When things are at their worst, people were absolutely 100% there.
This is a very difficult time for us both, the worst either of us have ever faced. There have been a lot of emotions shed, but we are the strongest we have ever been. Funny, on every other fork in the road, we have always remained resolute. We love each other dearly and in times of adversity, our love for each other always grows stronger.
In all honesty, we have no idea what the future holds now. This is the most unstable period in all our twenty years together. In my opinion, I don't believe that is of any relevance now. I would live anywhere with Jason, in a Mansion or in a gutter, it does not matter. We have started again many times and always survived. I am really sat here with a smile on my face. We did the right and honourable thing. I may not be religious, but I still have a firm set of morals.
My health is a continuing problem, but the issues are not insurmountable. There will be closure to my current situation, of that I have no doubt. Thoughts of dark times have vanished for now and that makes me happy and determined.
When one learns just how difficult others lives are, it brings home the nature of destiny and the battles many people have to endure. Ours are no different, just a little more challenging. I relish a challenge and always work best in these circumstances. I no longer feel trapped, I just feel relief and am relishing the uncertainty. These times always bring change and God knows we both need that. Change is good, cleansing and healing.
Thanks to everyone for all their help. A lot have people have surprised me, but then I should have more faith in those who we underestimate. It's time to fight for what we believe in, right to the bitter end, because we both know the outcome will be positive, new, scary, risky and just what we both need, in order for us to grow stronger!